My self-sabotaging habits are seemingly getting worse, and I think it's because I still don't know how to handle stress and prioritize tasks. I have a million things I need to do and I always end up procrastinating and pushing it off to the side for some immediate gratifying impulse. It's become my biggest battle and I feel like I'm barely holding on. I know I should seek counseling, but I have a hard time following through even on that. Everything is a struggle and I'm so unmotivated to do anything, yet the stress and anxiety keeps me up at night. It's a horrible, vicious cycle that I can't seem to break.
Is this depression? It doesn't feel like it, I just feel like I'm lazy and unmotivated. But with loads of anxiety that I just can't seem to have the energy to deal with. It's a horrible coping mechanism at least. I'm avoiding doing so many important things. Things that will effect my future.
I wish I could fix what was wrong with me. I wish I knew what's wrong with me. I don't even know that. I feel like a loser. I can't start anything. I can't finish anything I start. I can't follow through on promises, to others and myself.
Somebody please help me.
Is this depression? It doesn't feel like it, I just feel like I'm lazy and unmotivated. But with loads of anxiety that I just can't seem to have the energy to deal with. It's a horrible coping mechanism at least. I'm avoiding doing so many important things. Things that will effect my future.
I wish I could fix what was wrong with me. I wish I knew what's wrong with me. I don't even know that. I feel like a loser. I can't start anything. I can't finish anything I start. I can't follow through on promises, to others and myself.
Somebody please help me.
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