I can't remember the exact conversation verbatim, but I recently was watching Kiki's Delivery Service and it was after the part she realized that she had lost her magic powers, and she couldn't figure out how or why. So she went to go stay with a friend out in the woods, and her friend told her that maybe she needs to find a purpose for her powers, like a reason to do them. Maybe she lost her magic because she had lost her sense of purpose or direction. I've seen this film many times but it didn't really click with me as a kid until now, and it makes sense what she was talking about. I feel like I can really relate to it, because I used to have so much of my own magic. But these past couple years I've lost my sense of direction, and sense of purpose. I don't really know what I want to do in my life.
Everybody says that everybody goes through this stage in life. But that's all that everybody ever says, they don't have any other answer.
I've been thinking lately that I want to get back into art. I want to take some more classes, learn some more techniques, because I've been wanting to paint my dreams. Literal dreams, the ones from sleep. I feel like I haven't had as vivid dreams anymore I used to have as when I was a kid. But I remember so many of them, and in so much detail. I want to bring them to life somehow, see them for real, not just in my head. There is this one dream that has stuck out to me, it's not a situation but a place that I've dreamed about. It's in a vast flat valley, with black mountains and cliffs on either side of it. It's cold, very rocky and rich landscape, and in the center is this incredibly high tower, almost like a mountain that's a mile or two high. When you stand at the top, the lands below look like as if you are looking down from an airplane, and the ground looks like a flat painting because it's so high up. At the very top is a castle, very nordic looking.
I really want to paint this, but I don't even know where I would start.
I've always like the vast, surreal landscapes that I see in my dreams, or the ones I used to see anyway. I feel like I've lost my own magic.
Everybody says that everybody goes through this stage in life. But that's all that everybody ever says, they don't have any other answer.
I've been thinking lately that I want to get back into art. I want to take some more classes, learn some more techniques, because I've been wanting to paint my dreams. Literal dreams, the ones from sleep. I feel like I haven't had as vivid dreams anymore I used to have as when I was a kid. But I remember so many of them, and in so much detail. I want to bring them to life somehow, see them for real, not just in my head. There is this one dream that has stuck out to me, it's not a situation but a place that I've dreamed about. It's in a vast flat valley, with black mountains and cliffs on either side of it. It's cold, very rocky and rich landscape, and in the center is this incredibly high tower, almost like a mountain that's a mile or two high. When you stand at the top, the lands below look like as if you are looking down from an airplane, and the ground looks like a flat painting because it's so high up. At the very top is a castle, very nordic looking.
I really want to paint this, but I don't even know where I would start.
I've always like the vast, surreal landscapes that I see in my dreams, or the ones I used to see anyway. I feel like I've lost my own magic.
